Had a terrifying moment just now, realizing someone i know in real life added me in sina weibo, which i posted all my intimate and most secretive feelings post in chinese to it. BLACKLISTED her and changed all my information. FUCKING SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME! Hope she didnt get to see what i’ve written there, or else. Im forced to come out which i am not ready yet!
I had the best masturbation just now through out my whole life, it was so awesome. I lasted 15 minutes jerking myself off and my mind was just imagining dirty stuff of paul wagner and jayden tyler all the way until I cummed! I AM SO HUNGRY NOW AFTER IT!
Sometimes how I wish I am straight, damn straight like my straight-forwardness. I ain’t say that gay is wrong, but when you start to think of what would happen and how hurt will your loves one be, you’ll wish badly that if you could choose to not to be gay.
Need to deal with my insomnia for sure now. 2 hours of roll and twist, and with only 3.5 hours of sleep for the past 24 hours, I am really having some problem already. All I ever wish for was just eyes close, 3 seconds later, fall asleep, not waking up every 10 minutes, screaming to myself what the hell is wrong with me. Diet plan always fail cos I’ll eat whenever I get frustrated, like now, I’m really super max FRUSTRATED.
Oh please ad chan, just sleep.
Like right in this moment, my body send me signs of sleepiness, but when I do try or just sleep, it just won’t happen.
Fuck you insomnia, fuck my life!
Well, just figure I’m obsessed with sheldon cooper, not only to his humorous performance on the big bang theory, but also the fact that I have a slight crush on nerdy guy now, he is mother fucking cute. Am I weird? :/
I really need to start working out, it’s already 2012 for god sake. Ain’t wanna be a fat ass for the rest of my life. But with the busy schedule, I started to doubt myself already, although I can do it whenever I got home from college, or at the weekends, but there’s always something pulling back. The self-remorse afterwards ain’t helping at all too. Yet, still I can find a bunch of excuses to lazed around. I need motivation man, I need friends who has some kind of power or ability to initiate my engine of desires to get the body I’ve been craving.
I need it, desperately.
